🥸 Imposter Syndrome Got the Best of Me This Year

This year, I didn’t write a single note of music.

At first, it just felt like I was “busy.”

I was focused on things like…

And for a while, I believed that was enough.

But as the months went on, I started to realize something:

I wasn’t writing because I was afraid.

Afraid that I wasn’t good enough anymore. Afraid that I’d forgotten how to create something meaningful!

Imposter syndrome is sneaky like that.

It doesn’t always show up as self-doubt—it can look like procrastination.

Like telling yourself you’re “too busy” or that you’ll get to it later.

And in my case, later turned into a year.

The longer I stayed away from composing, the worse I felt.

I started questioning myself—who am I as a composer if I’m not even composing?

I saw friends and other musicians on social media (as if THAT’S helpful 😂)…

And it made me feel even more disconnected.

But the thing is... I know what I have to do to achieve those things!

I just fell into the trap of not doing it!

Sometimes it’s easier to help other composers with where they struggle than it is to help myself.

I came across a quote from Rich Litvin that says...

Confidence isn’t a requirement. It’s a result.

Imposter syndrome never fully goes away either.

But you can get better at recognizing when it tries to make decisions for you.

So as I look toward 2025, I’m choosing music again!

Because no matter how far I push music away, I always come back to it.

That tells me it’s part of who I am!

If you’ve ever felt disconnected from something you love, or if imposter syndrome has made you question yourself, I hope this helps.

You’re definitely not alone.

This is exactly what my LAST video of the year is all about!

Definitely check it out! 👇

Thanks for sticking with me this year.

Here’s to showing up for ourselves! 😁

More music tothink about.